Sunday, May 17, 2020

A big fan of father figures

Father figures
As we all know, father is a breadwiner of the family, always working hard to fulfilled family' needs. They seldom show deep interest in anything the kids say but small gesture/present/token of gratitude always ignite happiness in their heart. Father figures mostly showing less emotion as compare to the mother but that does not mean they don't care. They just showing love in their own way, intefering when necessary and always trying their best to be the role model for the kids to follow.

I, physically took after my father. Wherever I go people will know whose daughter am I. That does not restrict me to be as naughty as a kid should be. I do makes a lot of childish mistakes and get scolded for them. I don't even care if neighbours keep on complaining to my parents on my delinquencies, I just continue being a kid.

Growing up, I realized I possessed the same temper as my dad. And i hate him even more. I know he is dissappointed in me and i just dont know how to react to him. Once my exam result release and i pass with flying colours, he hug me and said he is proud of me. I never heard that before, from him, as i was regarded as the 'black sheep' of the family. I finally understand his silent does not mean ignorance towards me, he just don't know how to share them.

As i grow older and going to university, I manage to suppress my temper, by talking to my father. Every free time at home, I will try my best to have a conversation with him (even with silly topic) and we becomes friend. He didn't call me by name anymore. He just called me by "aku-kau" basis as if we are truly friend. I thinks I'm the only one who takes him seriously in a conversation (as my sister only looking for compliments and my brother is too busy to reply on anything). I become closer to him and i realize how awesome he is (no wonder his siblings respect him so much despite he's lacking in education).

And now my father is on a hospital bed, awaiting diagnosis for his bleeding urine symptoms. I just hope there are nothing serious about that. He manage to talk about his suffering and I can't help him there. I could only wish and pray for the best for him. I hope everything is going to be fine. I can't even travel back home due to this pandemic lockdown.

I miss them, both parents right know. Even though i have 20 years experienced of staying away from my family, this feeling of homesickness will never fades away. God i hate this feeling. Wish i would be there.

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

Nasty things???

Nasty is
When Obito lecturing Kakashi about the worst scum of a person who leaves their comrade behind, but he is the key player on destroying his fellow shinobi.

Nasty is
When Ao accuse Danzou of using Shisui's sharingan to persuade Mifune during the election of the leader for Allied Shinobi Force, using a Byakugan stole from Konoha.

Nasty is
When Sasuke siding on the wrong side, not  knowing the real story behind the Uchiha's annihilation. Not knowing the real reason he was left alive.

Nasty is
When Gaara leisurely kill anyone in chunin exam without mercy, while he is the one who craves them all along.

Nasty is
When Sakura confess her love to Naruto, to distract his thought from Sasuke, just to ensure he will not pursue Sasuke because she intend to kill him.

Nasty is
When Nagato admitted that Jiraiya is his sensei but do nothing to console the situation, and charged fully forced on him as if he is the bad guy all along

Nasty is
When Karin forcefully attack Suigetsu after interrogated in Konoha, to release her anger towards Sasuke for stabbing right thru her just to kill Danzou.

Nasty is
When Sasuke activate his "Planetary Devastation" jutsu right after sealing Kaguya Otsutsuki, just to have a fight with Naruto

Nasty is
When the ten-tails aiming bijuu dama towards the HQ of Allied shinobi forces, to destroy those who was not "threatening" them on battlefield.

Nasty is
When Kakashi was comparing everyone's wedding present to choose who are accepted to attend Naruto-Hinata's wedding

These deeds are what i call nasty. I hate the way these people choose to act, but do i hate the person?
I don't think so
These people are adored and admired in their lifes, for what they have accomplished and what they have trained themselves to be
Anyone has a tendency to do nasty things in your eyes, hate the deeds not the do-ers.

Adiosss